Tuesday, January 31, 2006
I have been awfully tired. I am under so much stress and facing so much unpleasant circumstances and obstacles, that I had reasoned they were the cause of all my fatigue and all I could do was rest as best as I could. The doctor asked me if I hadn't been feeling tired, but since I had absolutely no wish to talk about the problems I am facing to a complete stranger who was asking perfunctory medical diagnosis questions, I answered, "No, I haven't been tired, everything is fine." Ha! Right. "You just can't imagine just how dandy," I could have added for that touch of, "Is there any justice in the world?
But I will try to get my blood pressure checked again today, because I am feeling so tired. Still, it feels like a very emotional type of tiredness, like a thick cloud that sets over and inside you. But maybe a little bit of it could be on account of the blood pressure as well. I am just down today. Even though I may be getting some good news in the next two weeks, one more obstacle hopefully passed, I have such an unhappy feeling today. I am so tired of having to work in horrible circumstances, so much stress and pressure, loneliness, and having to live in a pigsty of a society.